back frm chalet!

lol im back frm chalet! ok actually i was back ytd but i was too tired frm the lack of slp.. lmao, thx sarah for the free chalet man.. it was one of the funniest chalet ever man.. cant believe u can laff so much frm bridge.. sian makes mi miss my ahs days.. its so full of laughter and fun.. aahhh, the gay antics of ray,zy and shihan totally made mi laff until my stomach wanna baozha man.. lol i din noe game of life is so fun also.. yay nice chalet.. actually i kinda thought its gonna be damn awkward since i quite long nv see them le.. and a couple of them i dun really talk to them in ahs also.. but well, thank god we were able to juz indulge in the fun and so very easily interact with one another.. yay! one memory im gonna bring with mi to tekong man..

omg! 2more wks to tekong.. the past 3mths it nv really crossed my mind that i will be wearing the much dreaded leafy uniform complete with a helmet which is said to minus our iq by 100.. lol, guess the idea is gettin very real now! 2 more wks!!!! hopefully i can get into a nice platoon with nice ppl.. if not my 3mths in bmtc1 is gonna be hell for mi.. pls pls pls!! whatever divine power that exist pls gimme ur utmost blessings!! aye, since there's only 2wks left.. time to use the 12days i have in april fully!!

for the first time in 2yrs.. i can safely say that.. i can finally stop knocking.. hopefully i can stop for good.. i never felt so free! cheers!

:O! WORK!

oooo thx gracelyn again for another job offer.. haha duno y she owaz got lobang.. so yeah! tmr got job.. i noe its onli a 2days job but good enuff! 7bucks an hr is not bad an offer u noe! juz stand there and pull customers over for 7hrs.. sounds ez enuff.. juz gimme some info and im good to go(hopefully) yay! at least i noe 7hrs of my time will be occupied for the nxt 2days! less boredom! more money! my ankle is kinda healing up le, juz feel a bit sore in a couple of places.. hopefully in a wk's time, i can do some exercise! yay! suddenly tings r startin to look a tad more interesting..

tired

aye, this morning when i wake up.. i duno why but i suddenly felt tired.. not physically but mentally.. izit worth it to carry on waiting? its not lyk i wait a few mths but its 2yrs.. and for 2yrs it always looks bleak.. it kinda sux this way and a part of mi wants to change it.. and the most rational way to change it is to stop the wait.. mayb i will just do that....

wah 10 dys nv blog liao.. since i got nth to do, i shall blog!! omg, im sucha hardcore ass can?? cant believe i actually caught up with 3 series of show.. lol namely naruto, prison break and heroes! nice shows! heh, and i re-watchin friends.. wah im lyk some tv show freak! but bcoz im so hardcore, i juz shot myself in the foot.. now i muz wait patiently for new episodes to come out weekly.. so turn out, i'll have absolutely nothing to do until the new episodes come out.. urgh! boredom!

ok one more wk b4 the deadline for submitting the uni registration.. ok, guess i kinda have an idea what im gonna go le bah.. hopefully it will bring to where i wanna be and not some shit job after graduation!

haiyah life's boring.. ankle's still sprained.. so i seriously have nth interesting to blog.. zzzz.. some1 pull mi outta this pit of boredom

still cant decide

ok its down to 2wks on the counter.. tts the amt of time i have left to come to a decision.. haiz so hard!! i lrdy had difficulties deciding between econs and f.maths liao.. omg now i got so freaking many courses to choose and for most course i hafta decide which sch to go to...

guess i hafta decide between ntu biz, ntu maths, nus maths and nus system engine in 2wks.. haiz too bad im not rich enuff to smu.. hopefully ntu can mould into the ppl i see at smu.. confident and articulate.. 2 attributes which i totally dun possess now..

tough choice man tough choice.. tooouuuuggghhh choice... veeerrryyyy vvveeeerrrryyyyy ttttoooouuuuugggghhhh cccchhhooooiiiiccceeee!!!!!!

late night

ok! im typing the first post on this keyboard! quite quiet leh, means can type as hard as i can and i won wake my whole family up..

well they say that as we get deeper into the night, we tend to tink more.. it seems the darkness and silence of the night brings up the deepest thoughts buried in the depths of one's mind.. hard to dispute that.. everytime it gets late, i juz kip pondering about my life.. have u ever wondered what it would be like if u have mayb made a different decision at some point of ur life.. everyting cld be different now.. and sometimes, dun u juz feel lyk giving up something that is so precious and important but juz cant see to let go.. it sux when u tink about what the future have in hold for us and all we can tink abt r predictions.. predictions that most probably will be far off from what is gonna happen.. and sometimes, u have this gut feeling that something had actually happened and that tiny weeny bit of hope u held was dashed.. and yet u cannot openly discuss about it.. all i can do is get pissed and type vague stuffs here.. i hate it when i get all emo.. y cant i be lyk those ppl who dun tink so much.. juz 4get what happen and cast every thots aside..

and with all the decision making.. i noe propaganda is a way to sell urself.. cant really fault them but the universities' incessant focus on their own good point really irritates mi.. every1 is owaz askin about how one can stand out.. how one will be the right choice bla bla bla.. i have nv seen one university or education faculty that dare to stand up and admit to us their short comings and prove to us that there r areas of improvement that they will see into.. if tt one college or school ever appear, i'm so gonna enrol for it.. they say confidence is important but i tink being self-conscious is juz as impt.. i dun see how incessant self-appraisal is a way to attract ppl.. owell, complaining is really all i can do.. bcoz at the end of the day, i will end up tryin to sell myself to future employers etc.. alamak, i juz hate such a result driven life.. and all i can do is to follow the flow..

dillemas

yeah, i noe many of us are probably facing the same problems with the selection of uni course.. haiz, so many questions pop up when we talk abt that.. which course will have a good career prospect, which will pa well, which is least boring bla bla bla.. haiz, b4 i went to the open house, my shortlist was pretty short.. mayb 3 or 4 choices.. but afterbeing exposed to more courses today, omg i feel lyk taking every single course and make my brain explode frm all the information.. aye, i noe i actually have 2yrs to decide but i hafta appease my mum who wans mi to settle everyting b4 ns.. zzz, so i hafta make a rough decision now.. its so damn hard!

all my life i had been thrown in a middle of a t-junction and i hafta decide which side to go.. but this time it's different.. in the past, if i were to choose the wrong path, i have the chance to redeem myself.. but now, if i choose the wrong degree.. i may end up being damn upset for the rest of my uni life! and probably the rest of my life.. tough choice eh.. fingers crossed, hope i will ultimately arrived at the right choice.. haiz, and after this, another cross road awaits me.. owell, guess life's all bout decision making.. and i suck at it

relentless rotting

wah more and more days of rotting!! finished 17 episodes of heros in 2days! 2days ok! i juz cant stop once i start.. but now i hafta wait one week for every new episodes le.. aye..

so i started watchin prisonbreak.. omg i tot its a weird show.. omg im wrong! its lyk freaking nice! wah all the prison politics.. and some of the gory scenes r totally stomach wrenching.. totally made mi cringe when i saw them cut off the lead's toe.. hopefully i won suffer frm burnout and can finish the whole series..

haiz dumb ankle! quik heal up! go go go ankle!

bai ka

aiyah been rotting at hme all day long.. so nth to blog about.. all i wan is my ankle to heal up.. sian it sux when i cant kick soccer.. it sux when i cant go swimming or jogging or juz do some sports.. sian im feeling all lethargic frm stayin at hme all day long.. urgh.. pls, ankle heal up fast!

Results show!

ok, today warrants a post ok! one of the biggest days of my life! days before i was pretty calm but when i reach the bedok interchange, my heart was pumping like mad.. wah, i din noe i cld get THAT affected.. lmao, turns out it was all good.. for 2yrs i had crap results, so kinda surprised.. heh! and most of the ppl i noe did pretty well, so yay! but for those ppl who din do as well as they wanted, im really sorry man.. im not good at consoling so i guess all i can really do is to say that all will be fine!

and its kinda nice to see all the ppl who came out frm ns.. its been mths since i've seen any of them!! lol all of them got damn tanned lah!! and many of them become more handsome with the tan.. serious man! (Y)(Y)(Y)!

sian my poor ankle.. got that damn injury 2days b4 the release of the results.. jidan juz took off the bandage.. wah, its totally all brusied up.. one whole patch of blue black arnd the ankle.. and in weird weird patterns.. sian stupid ankle pls heal up fast man.. i cant stand not moving arnd.. guess im hyper! heh!

wad a day..

knockin

aye, i have never known that knockin on a door can be that tedious on the mind and soul.. for 2yrs, i have been knockin on the same door, harbouring a hope that one day it will open up and let me inside.. even for juz a cup of tea.. for 2yrs, i juz kept knockin even when the odds r stacked up high against me.. i never really knew what was it like to be tired.. even when it slammed right into my face, after cursing and going mad, i pulled myself up and insisted on knocking on that door.. careful that i dun knock too hard or too soft.. but now, after 2yrs of knockin.. my knuckles r bruised.. my wrist r sore.. fatigue is slowly overcoming my arms.. and yet, i still want to keep on knocking.. am i dumb? or juz determined..