Leaving

Aye.. my days at Hawk are coming to an end.. its so ironic.. the first day i stepped into Hawk, Varun was telling me that i should not feel unattached to Hawk, dun carry the mindset that im juz there to slack and spend my 2mths.. i tot he was talkin rubbish.. what bullshit, im here for a short while and im gone! how to feel attached?!?!?!

wellwell, they say life always finds a way to mock you.. now that i am gonna go back to Gryphon... i cant help but feel sad and find it a pity.. this 2mths have been one of the most fun times of my ns life.. for 2mths, i built a very strong rapport with my colleagues, subordinates, superiors and of coz the recruits.. at first i had trouble remembering everybody's names.. but now, i noe them lyk they were my friends for quite some time! i can juz grab any of them and talk cock to them till the sun set.. and my dear recruits.. my first batch! what can i say, it was a delight to watch them grow.. watch them make it thru the field camp, the route marches, the SOCs.. haiz... but lyk them, my time is up.. a new place is waiting for me and with that, more responsibilities will fall upon my bony shoulders.. i duno if i can take it with quite a tyrant(i heard) as my direct superior but i rly rly hope i can forge the same kind of bond i had with Hawk.. i noe none of them noe this url but yes.. thank you Hawk.. this 2mths, i learnt alot.. from the very fundamentals of being a good instructor to how to be a better motivator and role model.. im sure the knowledge i have gained will come in handy in my days ahead.. haiz.. Cya Hawk!!

wah emo siah.. but i rly cant bear to leave hawk..

queasy

i duno how to start this.. its an uneasy feeling.. i noe its juz me and it shouldnt bug me that much.. but i cant help it! this fella juz makes mi feel uneasy.. and the weird ting is i dun even noe him well enuff to pass judgement about him.. but i duno y everytime his name is mentioned it makes mi feel uncomfortable aaaalllllll over.. and it has bugged me for awhile.. he juz do stuffs that make me feel uncomfortable la.. haiz nvm.. mayb after i come out frm the 3wks confinement the weird feeling will be gone..

tired........ for now

haiz i am very tired.. talk about poor stamina.. juz 1mth into the company, im feeling the heat. there are many aspects to cover and yet so little room for mistakes. so many things to remember and yet so little time to familiarize urself with everything..

sometimes i think i do too much.. sometimes i tink i shld juz let go and let myself be satisfied and let others sacrifice for mi.. but my conscience juz won let mi do that.. there are times when i feel that i am doing too much for others.. bt then again, there r ppl who are doing alot more than mi and yet they dun complain.. then why shld i feel aggravated.. its a thing i have to overcome but despite all the stuffs i have gone thru, this is one damn barrier im finding very hard to negotiate..

ohwell, sometimes i guess i hafta put on a strong front, a cheerful and tolerant face, which is actually a facade. damn tough man but hopefully i can tahan.. there r tings tt r too precious to mi tt i will do anyting to jeapardize them.. nvm, TAHAN!

yay finally!

yay! after 3wks, i finally can see my peipei.. lol her exams r finally over! 3wks is damn long can.. nvm, at least now her exams r over!

aye, my recruits will be coming in on 6th june.. sux man, cant see my current bunch of recruits pop.. nvm, shall try n squeeze out time.. haiz.. more responsibilities awaits mi! hopefully my shoulder will prove to be steady enough to handle the tasks i will be handling.. now all i can hope for is tt i will not kena that giant arrow waiting to be shot out.. pls nt let it be me!!!! PLS PLS PLS!!!

owell, bookin in now! friday will book out for a long wkend! yay! means more time to spend in singapore!! yay!! xactly 9mths and 1day to ord! v fast one v fast one..

field camP!

ok im bck frm field camp! no joke man, i've got heat rash all over my bck.. and i hafta kip a straight face n tell my recruits to tahan their heat rash when i myself was on the verge of succumbing to the itch.. im kinda enjoying my time at hawk.. lyk the very amiable environment there.. too bad it wont last for too long..

lol went on a shopping trip today!! lolol, enjoyed myself! and i managed to add 3 more tops to my increasingly predictable wardrobe.. whole day wear the same ting, at least now i have a liiiiiittle more choice.. lmao.. and hey, over her dead body is a surprisingl entertaining movie.. albeit the poor reviews on the papers, it is quite funny sometimes! had mi slapping my knees quite a few times.. lol.. anyw, kinda nice to hang out w da hulu and kinda nice to finally visit orchard lyk after gazillion yrs..

soccer tmr!! and and and, man u got into finals!!! omg, finals! i will do anyting.. i mean ANYTING to watch the finals ok!

exams gonna be over! jiayou lo! one more wk and u will be freed frm the terror of exams! lol..