sian!

ok pac is over.. my status let mi skipped the thing but feel abit sour about it.. kinda wanna take part in it.. it is the last platoon exercise afterall and i missed it.. owell..

not the main point.. after 8mths in this place, there will owaz be some days when u feel extremely down and the small negative stuffs irritate u so much it gets u complaining non stop.. today is such a day.. why izit that some disgusting guys get rewarded bcoz they noe how to wayang.. and yet the nice guys who duno how to impress superiors get fucked upside down.. why there r ppl who can so selflessly offer their help all the time and yet there r ppl who take ur help for granted.. damn disgusting.. im so gonna hate my last mth here.. i wanna get out of this place!!

wad a sad wk...

ok juz 4 more wks to commissioning.. ppl usually look forward to the remaining 4wks with much enthusiasm.. buuut, not for mi.. i mean how suay can i get.. juz on sunday night, i was telling myself," ok joseph, this wk is the wk u shld steer clear of ANY trouble.. jolly well behave urself so u can spend ur saturday to celebrate vday.. make up for not preparing anyting nice.." and the very nxt morning, i gotta have a damn low bp relapse and black out in the parade.. well, tt din sound lyk a cause of trouble for many but sadly for the sch i am in.. it spells three weekend confinement in bold and underlined.. owell, there goes my plan of bringing my gf to a nice restaurant and giving her a nice present and having a nice post vday celebration.. and there goes 3 of my last 4wkends.. wtf man.. is rly wtf.. but owell, not lyk i can do anyting.. all i can do is look at my frens' happy faces when they book out while dejected joseph march off for guard duty, thinkin abt how he cld have spent his time in civilisation instead of standing at the entrance lyk a statue..

but thankfully, my dearest edwin manage to get a night off on vday.. although abit pathetic lah, went to find her empty handed.. seriously i felt damn guilty.. wad kind of bf am i siah, vday nv prepare any present.. but aye, nvm i will make up for tt.. lol, at least got one day in the wk can spend time with her..

now, 2 more confinement to serve.. i very much hope that somehow i can clear asap.. so i can spend my wkend outside.. i cant wait to pop man.. i wanna be posted to somewhere new where i can start anew without the scrutiny of instructors and having to appease them and accept whatever instructions meted out.. i mean, flexibility man!! whats with all the rigidness! but owell, shall stop complaining.. juz let mi get out soon.. it sux when things are changing arnd mi and i am not arnd to see.. it sux when ppl impt r suffering and i am nt arnd to lyk at least lend a shoulder.. it sux when my frens r going out while i am still stuck in camp.. i noe after pop, i may be more occupied than ever.. but at least i have more control over my own time.. ok, i kip ranting.. i shall stop.. 4wks will be over soon!! very very soon!!!