ok finalli got mood to blog

yo! with 9hrs of slp, i finalli have the energy to type someting proper.. i am juz 2wks frm pop! omg, 9wks of bmt juz zoom past lyk that.. 6days of field camp seems so long ago! aahhh, i'll leave all the reminiscing of bmt to after pop when i am in the mood for that!

ns sux.. i duno what the hell it does to others but it definitely isnt helping mi.. yes it is making mi fitter physically.. first time i kick soccer, i almost nvr pant.. but mentally, ns is screwing mi up! i duno y but whenever i book out i got this empty feeling.. i have absolutely no idea what to do.. i dun feel lyk going out but i dun feel lyk stayin at hme either.. i dun feel close to anyone and when i feel lyk talkin, i cant tink of anybody to talk to.. and when ppl find mi to talk, i duno what to talk abt.. its lyk, ns dulls mi.. not lyk i was a particularly interesting person but ns seriously screws my head up.. and this shit will carry on for the nxt 1yr+ omg, i better dun come out of ns a geek..

aaahhhhh tmr muz book in for the one day confinement.. if i am not unlucky, i duno who is!!

anyway i chose to go to command sch in the ei tingy.. honestly, until now i still have doubts abt whether i have the ability to cope in command sch.. the tings i hear frm my pc dun sound exactly reassuring.. the tings they do r juz... beyond my imagination.. totally admire them for being able to go thru it.. if... IF... i ever get into ocs, hopefully i can get out of it alive!!

wah i juz realise my last few posts r all abt ns.. see! ns makes mi dull.. ns even makes mi DREAM abt ns.. tmd.. AAAHHHHH!!!!

juz a bit more

yay i'm back!! back frm tekong.. and i will be back real soon, hopefully! and im kinda tired so i won blog.. blog again when im back.. zzzz slp ah!

back again

ok i am out again.. onli 24hrs in sgp niah.. haiz, quite saddening lah but still... better than nth i guess..

roughly 3+wks to pop.. then i will have my 12days block leave! wah cant wait for that man.. 12days of freedom.. ok no mood to blog today but i got many tings to type out.. but nvm, nxt time i book out i shall type everyting out

haiz! sibeysian ah!

ok, i am 3hrs away frm booking in again.. so pathetic man! i have barely started to enjoy myself and i am going straight back in liao.. wah biang.. so sad can.. and then i will be in there for another 2wks.. and 6 of the days will probably be the worst day of my bmtc days.. coz its field camp! omg i am a bit anxious about it.. never noe what will happen and mayb some weird monster inside of mi will be unleashed and i'll piss everybody off..

i owaz tot i dowan to go ocs.. coz its too xiong etc.. but wah i cant believe i am a bit tempted after the talk by the big guy.. i 4got if he is oc or co.. since im gonna spend my time in ns, why not spend it fruitfully? nvm, we'll see during the 8th wk..

ok not really in the mood to blog.. see you in 2wks.. HAIZ!! dun miss mi every1.. haha!

ahhhh book in blues

aahhh! 17more hrs to booking in.. a pretty foreign feeling! actually i dun even noe if i am really THAT sad about booking in.. during the 2wks in tekong, actually i felt kind of nice there.. being able to start making frens frm zero grnd.. its lyk going there and be a new person.. possibly showing a facet that was hidden all along.. i kinda liked it and being there gave mi little time to ponder upon insignificant stuffs but ample time to straighten out much of my thoughts.. after the 2wks, i felt lyk i came back a refreshed person.. with new perspective and to a small extent with different priorities in life.. but still, i hate all the regimentation and "wait to rush and rush to wait" mentality.. its irritating we have to keep rushin our asses off and end up waiting for the programme to start.. simply annoying!

oh well, 6+ more wks to pop! many many more stuffs lyk bcct and field camp coming up! lemme pull thru all those shit!