ok finalli got mood to blog

yo! with 9hrs of slp, i finalli have the energy to type someting proper.. i am juz 2wks frm pop! omg, 9wks of bmt juz zoom past lyk that.. 6days of field camp seems so long ago! aahhh, i'll leave all the reminiscing of bmt to after pop when i am in the mood for that!

ns sux.. i duno what the hell it does to others but it definitely isnt helping mi.. yes it is making mi fitter physically.. first time i kick soccer, i almost nvr pant.. but mentally, ns is screwing mi up! i duno y but whenever i book out i got this empty feeling.. i have absolutely no idea what to do.. i dun feel lyk going out but i dun feel lyk stayin at hme either.. i dun feel close to anyone and when i feel lyk talkin, i cant tink of anybody to talk to.. and when ppl find mi to talk, i duno what to talk abt.. its lyk, ns dulls mi.. not lyk i was a particularly interesting person but ns seriously screws my head up.. and this shit will carry on for the nxt 1yr+ omg, i better dun come out of ns a geek..

aaahhhhh tmr muz book in for the one day confinement.. if i am not unlucky, i duno who is!!

anyway i chose to go to command sch in the ei tingy.. honestly, until now i still have doubts abt whether i have the ability to cope in command sch.. the tings i hear frm my pc dun sound exactly reassuring.. the tings they do r juz... beyond my imagination.. totally admire them for being able to go thru it.. if... IF... i ever get into ocs, hopefully i can get out of it alive!!

wah i juz realise my last few posts r all abt ns.. see! ns makes mi dull.. ns even makes mi DREAM abt ns.. tmd.. AAAHHHHH!!!!